Prideful Humility

I must admit I aspire to greatness - to be someone, to accomplish feats that are praised, to change lives.  Perhaps this last greatness is most supreme in my mind.  I want to be remembered, to be known, for positively impacting lives.  Praise be that I know of this to be a profound weakness - for that is what it is - a hindrance of my ability to worship not myself but my Lord.  Indeed it is said I shall lose more and more of myself in order that I might gain the Lord, and so it is, that although I aspire for greatness, I want nothing if not to make Him greater and me lesser.  I fear this temptation will always haunt me.  Oh may I never be in that place for I fear I would serve myself and not my Master.